Meaning of love

I’m not sure if anyone will take the time to read this, but I would appreciate if you did because I took the time writing it.

Since the beginning of time people had tried to figure out the meaning of love, the feeling, every inch of detail about it. Love is something I’m not entirely have felt yet. Yes, there is family and friend love. But there’s another type as well. Finding someone with mutual things in common with and whom you find attractive is the easy part of a relationship. You can “love” them, but there’s another part of it. The essence of love I think is to be utterly captivated by someone. This person blows your mind practically. Yes, they aren’t perfect by no one is, but you as your own person believe so. You notice little details and quirks about them, like how they say a certain word or eat food, and you adore those little things. You know this person better than anyone, even themselves. You can’t stand to seeing this person hurt or frustrated and when they are in distress, you are as well and will do anything in your humanly power to comfort your lover. You are attracted to everything about them regardless of what they don’t like about themselves. From scars to any extra pounds they have you still adore it all. You can tell this person anything and the same goes for them. You’re comfortable with every aspect of each others lives. You know this person weaknesses and strengths as well. You remember how they smell, and how their smile melts your heart. Now yes you must have time alone, but be with that person as much as you can. Make sure this person is assured with how you feel, and knows you’d never intentionally harm them. You enjoy every moment and try to make the person as happy and it doesn’t always have to involve physical pleasure. This person holds your heart and let’s no one else come in between it. You’re completely loyal to this said person because no one else could ever compare to them. Simply every aspect, every detail is ravishing to you. Physically, mentally and spiritually bonded together. There’s all yours, and you’re all theirs. No one else’s. Love is a destructive feeling, but also the most beautiful thing to feel and rarely comes along in life. When you find someone you have all these feelings for, cherish them and hold on to them with every fiber of your being.

I just realized whitekanye, messaged me.

wat. 

My will to live is becoming less and less everyday… 

bleh.

Honestly. I hate how hard it is to lose weight.

Yeah, I’ve noticed I have been losing weight, my stomach and hips are slimming down, and my inner thighs have got much smaller. But still it’s not enough.

I’m guessing I’m weighing around 170-175 right now, at least I believe so since I can fit my best friends pants, whom weighs around that. 

It just fucking sucks being fat. It really does. I’m gonna try really hard, starting today. I’m not gonna keep telling myself I’m gonna be beautiful, I’m going to make myself beautiful.

I’m done with purging, or atleast try to stop purging starting today.

So over the next.. probably five months. I’m going to try to lose about 40 pounds. I can do it, if I put my ass in gear. 

Well, honestly most people nowadays are stupid, ignorant, or annoying. People are all about publicity, fame, popularity. Like the people who make status or whatever like LMS IF YOU LOVE YOUR MOM. Stop it, mostly everyone loves there mom, you just want attention. Or all of the people are so up Adelia Rose’s ass, Kony, etc. Stop. You just wanna be a perfect little white activist. See, I feel bad for her. But yeah. I’m not gonna be like OMG BURN IN HELL FOR MAKING FUN OF HER. Also, The people who get offended at things that are on the internet. If you’re one of those people, get off the Internet. People post offensive, yet funny things. Get over it.And people will probably think I’m a bad person, but I’m not. I support just about everything, Gays, Abortion, Anti-Racism, etc. But I’m not going to rub it everyones face and feel like I’m a better person because of it.

life.

Well lately all I’ve been doing is working out, smoking weed, drinking and chilling with my boyfriend and friends. 

Good ass life. 

So lately, people have been flirting with me.

LIKE

DID I JUST RANDOMLY GET MORE ATTRACTIVE

OR PEOPLE JUST FUCKING WITH ME, WAT.

Its sad how unhappy I’ve become with everything.
some thoughts

sitting here, alone. almost as always. I just realize how much I hate myself. Not myself as a person. I know I’m a good, kind, caring person. But I despise every inch of my body, every extra pound. I want to go back to the old habits. Purging helped the weight go away. I exercise, eat pretty well, and drink a lot of water. it’s never fucking enough. why can’t I be beautiful. seriously …

Considering going to an inch with my ears?

yes or noo?

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